Hug you!!!

In dreams have i seen it dear
Of pain in ephemeral forms
None that lasted, none that tasted
beyond the saltiness of blood

About pains that drill the mind
I have been so immune or not
Who does know for with what eyes,
Can pain be measured?...

Broken bones u may diagnose
But soul wrenching aches how can you ever?
If felt within the core
There is no way u can show...

Of heyna's laugh u may accuse
When i cover my own grief
Am I to live my life and laugh
with a sense of trepidation

A state of fear ensues
For with every of ur action
I am at loss, in doubts consumed
What is ur white what makes ur blue

I have no stories to tell u
When i put u to sleep
I have no more words to allay u
I have been all used up

Consumed within a fire it feels
The pain still bearable
Because, because i know
You have suffered more

But how do i know?
Of ignorance, u may blame me
Of stupidity, u may my dear
But of fecklessness never do

I tried, I try and I will
Forever and more if it be
But do not blame me dear
Of being indifferent and uncaring

Cos if i have a name, it is for u
If i have a dream it just for u
If i am here it just cos
I wanted to give u a hug

To wake you from ur pain
That the lotus eater had fed u
No I am no God, but i could be
Your oasis, solace to a parched throat

A shade on the road under the hot sun
The shelter in a rain, one monsoon
The blanket on your body a winter
Just hugging you, chanting "Allay Allay!!"